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  “Perfect, let’s go and check out the café,” I respond happily. I put on my swimmers and throw my dress over the top. I grab my beach bag, and throw our towels in and my purse.

  We decide on steak sandwiches and chocolate milkshakes, perfect.

  Heading out to the pool area, there are numerous sun lounges so we lay and relax in the afternoon sun letting our food digest. “Come on Rox let’s go swimming, cool us down,” Kade tells me excited. I strip off my dress, watching him watch me and take in my mostly naked body. I then eye him when he loses the shirt, I can’t help but touch his abs, and I love that part of him.

  He takes my hand and we head to the larger pool, walking down the steps into the fresh and cool water. “That’s so refreshing,” I tell him when I come up for air. He throws his arms around me and kisses me, what is it about water that is so inviting.

  “Let’s have a sauna Kade, sweat out the beers you drank last night,” I say to him laughing.

  I climb out and he follows me into the room of the sauna. “Shit it’s hot in here,” I say to him and realise it is ridiculously hot; don’t know how long we will be able to handle it.

  Kade breaks into song, “It’s getting hot in here so take off all your clothes.”

  “Ha-ha you are hilarious you know that,” I reply smirking and teasing. Kade puts his hand on my leg and damn it felt like a lightning bolt. “Um maybe we should have a spa before we get kicked out for sex in the sauna,” I remark to him laughing and teasing. I notice the lust in his eyes, they look almost black from it. I find myself running out of the room before he corners me and I jump into the spa.

  “Oh now this is my kind of relaxing,” I announce and put my head back. Kade sits next to me and does the same thing.

  “This is perfect for my aching muscles Rox,” he advises me.

  “Oh I’m sure one of the Hurley girls would give you a massage if you asked,” I state and instantly regret it.

  “Oh there she is the feisty girl I fell in love with,” Kade jokes.

  “You know I couldn’t care less about them baby,” he declares.

  “You looked cosy with the blonde, oh and I’ve been meaning to ask what she whispered in your ear?” I query a little disgruntled he is disregarding my feelings again.

  “Don’t ask baby,” he tells me warning.

  “Honesty remember, just tell me what she said, I won’t get angry,” I growl at him now wanting to know even more.

  “She told me I was the sexiest surfer she had ever seen,” he tells me and smiles knowing my reaction will not be great.

  “Are you kidding? The whore actually said that? And you laughed so honoured that she thought that,” I state to him annoyed for a number of reasons.

  “Just drop it Rox, you are spoiling things,” he declares frustrated.

  I look away from him and decide to drop it; I could go on for hours. But like he said he couldn’t care less about them. End of story.

  Twenty minutes later our skin is wrinkled. “How about we go back to our room, get room service and order a movie Roxy?” Kade questions me changing the subject.

  “Sounds like a plan Mr. Thomas,” I reply starting to relax again.

  I climb out of the spa and head outside to get our towels. I turn to see Kade checking me out.

  “See something you like mister?” I ask him playfully.

  “That arse of yours actually and it will be mine again in about fifteen minutes,” he answers teasingly.

  The next day we sleep in, order bacon and eggs and enjoy breakfast in bed just totally chilling out away from the world. “How good is this?” Kade says to me excited.

  “So I was thinking maybe we check out the shops, play a bit of tennis later? What do you think baby?” I question Kade keeping in mind we want relaxation nothing too strenuous. He nods.

  Well maybe in the bedroom but nowhere else. I smile to myself.

  The day is nice; we wander around the town and find a few cute tops for me and a shirt for Kade.

  “I can’t remember the last time I went to the shops Rox,” Kade says to me.

  “Probably with Emma when you bought me that terrible perfume,” I answer him and giggle then punch his arm playfully.

  We head back to the room to shower and change as there is

  a band playing at the local club so we are heading there for dinner.

  The pub meal is delicious, steak with mushroom sauce, potatoes and vegetables.

  “How good is this meal Rox, the simple things in life,” he tells me smirking.

  We take a seat to watch the band, Kade heads to the bar to get us some drinks. Out of the blue a young guy with dark brown hair comes up to me. Oh great I think to myself, why do I attract the weirdos? “Got a smoke love?” the guy who couldn’t be any older than twenty asks me.

  “Ah no sorry I don’t smoke,” I answer him quickly then look away hoping he leaves.

  “Can I buy you a drink?” he then asks annoyingly.

  “No thanks, my boyfriend is at the bar getting me one,” I respond giving him the ‘I am not interested’ look. But of course it’s not soon enough.

  “Can I help you?” Kade asks the young guy arrogantly.

  “Nah man all good I was just leaving,” he replies and gives me one last creepy look before walking away. Kade sits down.

  “Jesus Roxy, have you got a radar that attracts all the deadbeat guys or what?” he asks me in what I think is him joking but I notice his serious expression.

  “What does that mean?” I query him a touch insulted. “You can’t say it’s my fault he came up to me?” I question him annoyed.

  “Well no but look at your history, that jerk at your work

  party, the text from an ex of yours and the bar tender at Pete’s wedding,” he says to me and pauses now realising he hadn’t mentioned that part to me before.

  “Are you really bringing all this up now?” I ask him pissed off.

  “And this is exactly why I didn’t tell you that the bar tender was someone I’d slept with, it’s all in the past,” I almost scream at him. “Do you have a problem with my past Kade?” I question him maybe now seeing that he does.

  “No baby settle down, it is all good, I just meant your track record is all, but hey look what you ended up with this stud,” he tells me and distracts me from being angry by making me laugh.

  We head back to our room after a few drinks. “I’m going to put the spa on, care to join me sexy?” I say seductively to Kade.

  “What do you think?” he answers quickly.

  I turn on the taps and when it’s full I put the jets on high, it looks amazing and it’s so warm I can’t wait to get in.

  “Strip for me baby,” I order Kade with my sexy voice. Without a moment’s hesitation he rips of his shirt showing me that glorious chest, so chiselled and tanned. Then he undoes his belt and zipper, sliding down his jeans to expose his black boxer shorts, now with a large rod making a tent in them. “Happy to see me baby?” I giggle to him.

  “Always,” he replies. Then he pulls down his boxers, I lick my lips as his large shaft springs free, he rubs himself and stares at me.

  “Now it’s your turn to strip Rox,” he orders me with heat radiating off him and want in his eyes.

  I pull off my silky top showing my new silver and black bra, it’s a push up bra so I have fantastic cleavage. “Damn Rox do you know how hot your tits look in that?” he asks me almost attacking me. I pull down my black jeans and show him the matching silver and black g-string. Turning around to show him my naked arse and just how skimpy and high cut the panties are.

  I unclasp my bra and let it fall to the floor, exposing my tender breasts, hard from seeing him naked and feeling hot and turned on. “Beautiful,” he says to me. Then I pull down my g-string showing him my new Brazilian wax I had done.

  His eyes widen and he smirks. “In the spa, now Roxy,” Kade orders me in his husky voice. I climb in and can feel him climbing in behind me, his hands instantly on my breasts
, squeezing and flicking my nipples.

  He kisses my neck as I lean back into him. I feel his steel hard erection digging into my behind. His hand wanders down to my core and starts to massage me. The bubbles and jets of the spa are increasing my pleasure. “That feels amazing Kade,” I tell him feeling blissful.

  “I want you inside me Kade,” I order him with intensity. I need to feel him so I reach behind and pull his largeness between my palm, I love the heat radiating off him and his dick is so rock hard. I pull up and down slowly making him groan. “I’m going to climb on top baby,” I declare to him and position myself on top of his shaft with my back still to him. I feel him at my entrance and I push into his cock, it is so hard and throbbing I push down farther and he slides deeper into my wetness. “Damn that’s good baby,” I state to him feeling so filled. I start to move up and down slowly at first and then increase my speed faster and faster riding him into oblivion.

  “Damn Roxy you make me hot, do you know that?” he asks me teasing and tweaking my left nipple hard.

  “Mmm,” I respond. He massages my clit and I feel my

  orgasm bubbling to the surface. He increases speed with his finger while I bounce up and down on him harder and harder until I explode. I am mesmerised and ecstatic from my raging release. Kade thrusts upwards harder and harder before thrusting with one long hard ram to enhance his own explosion. I feel him explode into me, he moans as he empties himself into me. I fall back onto him as we both relax, feeling spent and blissful.

  “Well that was amazing if I don’t say so myself baby,” Kade declares to me smiling adoringly.

  We head home after check out the next day, just as I receive a text from Jeremy. His band Electric Beat will be playing at North Sydney pub Friday and Saturday night. “Hey baby we gotta go see Jeremy’s band play on the weekend, that okay with you?” I ask him sweetly.

  “Yeah I’d love to see them let’s go, I might ask Pete and Emma I haven’t seen them since their wedding,” he answers me obviously missing his mate.

  “Sounds good,” I answer.

  While Kade is driving I start to reminisce about my brother, I guess it was when he moved out our closeness changed. I was fifteen he was eighteen and moved out with his band mates.

  I didn’t see him much at all, maybe once a week, and even then it was just for quick visits.

  I found myself up in his old room playing his cds that he had left, reading his books after school some days. Before he had moved out we would watch TV with me and chat after her finished work for the day.

  Being a hormonal teenager I guess I felt anger towards him for just leaving, much like our father did but under way different circumstances. I wasn’t happy to see him when he dropped in for

  mum to do his washing or make his lunch. It wasn’t quality time.

  So when his band got a gig touring Europe, I felt even more deserted.

  We had a farewell party for him and his band. They were to live over there for five years and travel around playing at pubs. It was such a big start for them.

  I was never a bitchy sister so when it was time for our goodbyes I gave him a huge hug and said good luck with a make sure you come back and visit a lot.

  He gave me his brown puppy dog stuffed toy as a memento.

  Little did he know but I slept with it every night without fail after he left.

  Anyway we have always kept in touch and now that I’m an adult I realise he was doing what we all do, grow up and try to make a life for ourselves. It didn’t feel that way to me at fifteen though.

  It was fantastic that Kade and Jeremy got along so well Christmas Day.

  He had seen tons of photos and I’d shown him the bands

  website, all very flash and modern. The Electric Beat, their band name definitely had a great ring to it.

  I ring mum wondering if she knows about Jeremy’s gig. I love hearing her happy voice and I know Phil is perfect for her. He is very down to earth and makes her the happiest I can ever remember seeing her. She has quit smoking and has been working in the Crystal shop in town, so I’m loving the bracelets and dream catchers she gives me.

  Friday night is a hit, Electric Beat sound fantastic, everyone’s dancing and enjoying themselves, and their music is cross between Matchbox 20 and Powder Finger.

  After the gig I head to the ladies, when I see Jeremy in a back room with another man and they are yelling at each other. “You owe me twenty grand by Wednesday. You fucking mess me around again and you will pay,” the man says and knees Jeremy in the balls and then walks out.

  I run into the room. “Damn it Jeremy you owe him money?” I question him as he is holding himself in pain. “I thought you guys were doing gigs and making money over there, what the hell has happened bro?” I ask half worried and half angry. I hug him and help him up.

  “Shit Roxy, we were all partying too hard and somehow I gambled more money than I realised on the pokies. Damn shark lent me the cash no worries, fucking idiot that I am I shouldn’t have taken it,” he confesses openly to me.

  “It’s okay bro we will sort it,” I assure him and throw my arms around him.

  Sharks are threatening him, just great.

  Why do I have the feeling I am being followed?

  I notice that the white car across the road has been there numerous times over the last two weeks.

  I find myself looking over my shoulder and double

  checking if I'm being followed, not to mention any dark alleys or places alone.

  I swear if this has something to do with Jeremy I will kill him. I have enough going on with work, Kade, his surfing, job and not to mention his family squabbles.

  Jeremy is in way above his shoulders, up shit creek without a paddle is the correct terminology.

  Typical Jeremy thinking that he is invincible!

  And for fucks sake he's not even a good poker player, so I don’t know why he didn’t quit after he lost his watch, but no he keeps playing. That's why he's an alcoholic and does drugs, his personality becomes addicted easily, like the poker machines. Gambling and not backing down. Now the bouncer has sent his sharks to rough him up leaving him with a black eye, broken rib, and a promise from him he will have the cash in five days or else. Fuck dude. Way to cause a family feud. I've been trying to save to go to Hawaii with Kade so I do have some money put away. But I’m trying not to have to chuck my life savings away for his dumb arse behaviour. He's trying the banks but you can imagine his credit rating.

  So yeah sure it's probably a damn shark following me to see where I live, car I drive all the stuff they can take if he can't pay his debt.

  I pick up my phone and call Jeremy. “Hey Jez it's me, I think I'm being followed, no thanks to you,” I scrutinise him.

  “What oh no way Rox you are over reacting,” he states calmly to me.

  Who does he think he is? Time to give him a piece of my mind.

  “Why did you come back? You have put us in friggen danger from your stupidity, you should have stayed out of our lives we were happier without you!” I yell into the phone and hang up.

  Grrrrr, he makes me so angry. Kinda glad I only have the one sibling if this is how it goes.

  It is Wednesday and as I’m leaving work I find myself checking the streets, probably freaking myself out more than I need to. It's all clear so I unlock my car, smiling at my sexy blue car.

  She's my pride and joy little Betty the barina, perfect zoom around car and manual which I love too.

  I open the door and climb into my seat and as I put the key in the ignition I feel a hand across my mouth. Shit.

  “Scream and I'll shoot you bitch,” the man warns while digging something into my head

  This can't be happening I think, help somebody! I remain quiet and nod so scared of this mystery man.

  “I have a message for your brother,” he tells me disturbingly. Fucking Jeremy I knew it! I close my eyes and try to calm down, tears are stinging my eyes. Is this it, twenty-four years and it will be over.
The man pushes the gun harder into my head.

  “Agh,” I scream muffled under his hand.

  “You tell Jeremy that Louie wants his twenty grand in full by Friday!” he angrily tells me. Handing me an envelope he adds, “Here is the address and if he doesn't bring it, the gun will be used to send a message next time, got it princess,” he states to me and jumps out of the car and runs off.

  I am shaking and in shock and I start hyperventilating.

  I click the doors locked and cry a big long ugly cry, I can’t stop shaking as I pick up my phone and call Kade. I take in a few deep breaths to try and sound less upset. “Hey baby,” Kade answers sweetly.

  “Oh hey I have a flat tyre outside of work can you come and fix it?” I lie to him trying to hold back the tears, not wanting him to race over here worried.

  “Yep sure Rox, give me twenty minutes and I’ll be there,” he replies quickly.

  The next twenty minutes is the longest I have ever felt.

  Finally Kade arrives, I see him walking over inspecting my car for the flat tyre. I have managed to calm down a lot. I unlock the door and lower the window.

  “So which tyre is it Rox?” he queries searching the car.

  “I don’t have a flat tyre Kade, I was attacked by someone that Jeremy owes money too,” I tell him and start crying and shaking again, I manage the full story as he climbs into the other side.

  “How dare your brother come back into your life and put you in danger. Damn it Roxy you could have been killed, he could have hurt you, raped you! I hate the thought of that arse hole touching you!” Kade yells angrily. He scares me when he gets that anger in his eyes but I see how much this has affected him, me being hurt and threatened.

  I am shaking, still hours after the attack, I just can’t shake the man’s voice, his grip on my shoulders and the gun at my temple. Oh my god. I start crying, shaking, holding my arms around my legs, I am still in shock. We leave my car here and

  Kade drives me back to my place and stays with me.

  I go straight into the bedroom and lie on my bed, Kade comes over and wraps me in his arms.