Breaking My Heart Page 13

  “Roxy, turn around,” I hear Jemma yelling.

  “What?” I say to her and turn around, to see that it isn’t Kade at all but some sleazebag that just thought he would grope me.

  “Get your fucking hands off me!” I yell at him and push him away. Just perfect. I see Kade heading back and he has witnessed the whole event. He puts our drinks on the table.

  “What the fuck are you doing man? She is with me!” he screams at the scum bag.

  “Well she was enjoying herself from where I was standing,” the jerk replies looking to obviously cause a fight.

  “He’s not worth it Kade,” I say to him trying to prevent a war from breaking lose.

  “I’ve seen her here before a lot so I wouldn’t get too attached dude, she changes guys every week,” the loser says to Kade now laughing.

  SMACK! Kade punches him clear in the nose. “Don’t you fucking speak about her like that you arsehole,” he screams at the wanker who is now on the floor holding his bleeding nose.

  I run to Kade. “Shit baby I didn’t know you could punch like that,” I smirk at him and rub his fist, then kiss it. “Your hand okay?” I ask him.

  “Shit Rox, you gotta take care of yourself, you didn’t even know it was a random guy, what if he’d hurt you or touched you somewhere else, I would have demolished him!” he says to me concerned.

  “I just assumed it was you, it was stupid, won’t happen again okay,” I promise him lean up to kiss him. I was the damsel in distress and my knight in shining armour saved me.

  “That was something from a fairy tale baby, you’re my knight in shining armour, did you know that Kade?” I say to him smirking and try to distract away from the previous disaster. He kisses me back, showing the other guys in this club that I am his and his alone. Staking his claim on me and I am more than willing to let him.

  So other than that event the rest of the night was great, lots of laughs, drinks and a taxi ride home that ends in hot drunken sex. I take the lead and push him on the bed, strip him from his pants and boxers and grab his thick length in my hand; I stroke it and squeeze it. Then I start to lick the tip with my tongue. He groans and I feel him expand, wondering how he could get any bigger, already being enormous.

  “You make me so wet when you are horny for me baby,” I tell him with hunger in my eyes. Licking the tip again I kiss him all around, and then with my lips wrapped around the tip I thrust it deeply into my mouth, catching him by surprise he groans in pleasure.

  I suck again and again, going deeper as I feel him at the back of my throat, I love doing this to him. I love everything about this man. I grip his cock tighter with my hand up and down as I suck, then lick the tip, taking it all the way. His louder groans tell me how close he is getting so I decide to go faster with my mouth and hands, in and out.

  I want his warm liquid in my mouth so I pump and pump and as he lifts his head off the pillow and groans loudly I swallow him, every drop. “Oh Roxy baby that was awesome,” he tells me.

  “Now lay down my gorgeous lady so I can fuck you hard!” he exclaims. Oh yeah now we are talking, I think to myself. He pushes me onto the bed and rips my jeans off roughly. I totally love the rough side to Kade when he’s drunk and now he is much more confident from our frequent romps.

  He kisses me hard and rubs my core through my g-string, and then he rips it down my legs and flings it across the room, causing us both to crack up laughing. When his finger enters me I groan. “Always so wet for me Roxy, it’s such a turn on baby,” he admits to me. He adds another finger, then a third.

  “Agh!” And then they’re gone. As I lift my head to see where he’s gone I feel a hard throbbing at my entrance, he pushes his cock in hard and deep as I cry out, “Kade!” From both pleasure and shock of the force.

  He thrusts again just as hard. Oh man I’ve created a monster I think. Another thrust harder than the last, over and over. I feel my release coming and he starts to massage my clit to help me along, “Yes baby, yes!” I scream and feel my orgasm hit me like lightning. Spasms in my core, over and over, as Kade keeps massaging and thrusting. I feel a second orgasm coming, oh man it’s even more intense. “Shit Kade!” I scream as he thrusts harder and harder again and again. I am in euphoric pleasure and he comes inside me, emptying himself. We both collapse spent. I cuddle into him.

  “A double baby, you are teaching me a thing or two these days,” I say to him laughing still drunk. Then we both fall into a drunken coma.

  Holidays and breaks are always short lived; we are back into the swing of working with me in the design studio and Kade site manager at the builders. Our afternoons and evenings are also taken up between surfing, pole dancing and my uni assessments. It totally sucks that we are seeing each other less and less so we decide to make the most of the next weekend with two nights at the Lake house in Whitehaven.

  “Do you know how lucky you are to own this place Kade?”

  I ask him as we pull into the all familiar driveway. “Yep it’s pretty awesome,” he answers satisfied.

  “It was a no brainer really buying it from mum and dad, I wasn’t going to let go of something this amazing,” he winks at me.

  We are sitting a few metres back from the lake on the deck chairs, it’s an all timber style house, with a wraparound veranda, large bay windows with views of the water, and it is every bit of paradise you would want in a weekend place, a resort even.

  I gaze at the palm trees surrounding the back and front and it instantly reminds me of Miami Beach.

  The place is crawling with wildlife, kangaroo’s hoping around with rosellas in the trees and kookaburras calling every morning and night, waves crashing from the beach a few streets away.

  The smell of the ocean, salty, fresh, and crisp gives me an instant relaxed feeling.

  It’s still summer, so the hot scorching sun burns down, enhancing adrenaline and the rays of vitamin D creating an oasis of euphoric release.

  This to me is the ultimate relaxation and it’s a bonus sipping wine in the sun, swimming, laughing.

  Not to mention the kissing and playfulness of us both without a worry in the world.

  The sweltering heat makes us even hotter for each other. With me wearing a bikini and short skirt, there is a lot of skin to skin contact. Kade’s chiselled body, toned and those abs are to die for, I could look and touch all-day and I plan too.

  This particular weekend is fantastic. All we do is sunbake, take the boat out and drink ice cold wine and beer.

  Laying on the fold out chairs facing the water I see Kade looking me up and down.

  I must admit my gorgeous pink bikini doesn’t leave a lot to the imagination and with the shoe string straps it could be off in five seconds flat.

  These moments of wanting leads to hot and steamy outdoor sex! Kade jumps on me ravishing me and gets me so wet and wanting that I throw my towel over his back and let him slide into my wetness. “Yes baby,” I whisper into his ear. So thankful that there is no one around. Damn it was fucking hot, enhanced by the outdoors, thrill of possibly getting caught and the burning sun. We both came in record time. We could not get enough of each other.

  This is definitely the Australian way, we have a barbeque for dinner and the flies buzzing around are annoying that’s for sure.

  It is great when Ebony and John come down too, we got along so well, but I love just me and Kade time too.

  We are enjoying a few drinks with our lunch and, I will mark this as another one of the most memorable moments in our relationship.

  We have the radio on, when the song ‘Yellow’ comes on the radio.

  “Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you,”

  Kade is serenating me half drunk and boy is it cute.

  We gaze up into the sky and make love under the stars, he promises me we will be together forever, grow old together, it will be us always.

  He is so drunk and emotional his words are amazing.

  “Roxy you are my oxygen, without you I cannot breath
e,” he tells me with heartfelt emotion that brings a tear to my eye.

  “You are an electric current that helps my heart to beat in rhythm. You're the adrenaline that runs through my veins,” he adds charmingly. Damn has he been practicing these words?

  “You are like a heroin addiction that makes me weak, needing and brittle,” he continues on.

  “Without you I am half a man, without you I am nothing, without you I won't survive,” he finishes up and looks at me; I have tears falling down my cheeks.

  “Shit, that was amazing Kade those words mean so much to me, do you know that?” I ask. He nods.

  The next day his cousin meets us at the house. “Roxy this

  is Chuck,” he says introducing us.

  “Hey Chuck,” I say to him and he shakes my hand.

  “Nice to finally meet you. The whole family talks about you,” he reports to me chuckling. I smile glad that I’m the one to finally steal Kade’s heart.

  “I just dropped over to show Kade my new dirt bike,” he declares to me and points to the bike on the trailer he is towing.

  “Cool bike,” I respond happily. Both boys laugh.

  “How about I take you for a ride Roxy then you can see how cool the bike really is?” Kade challenges me.

  “Yeah for sure, I’m game if you are Kade,” I assert with a large grin spread across my face.

  So I guess I'm a thriller seeker! Give anything a try once. I've skydived and parasailed. So why was I scared shitless now that Kade wanted to take me on this bike?

  Maybe it was since the surfing drama, I guess at least this time I’ll have a helmet on.

  Or maybe it was riding through the rough and uneven bush, not to mention I'd never seen Kade ride before or maybe just the size of the bike. I think it’s more the combination of everything.

  “Come on Rox you aren't scared are you?” Kade says stirring me.

  “No way,” I tell him. “Just not very confident in your driving baby,” I say teasing. “How bout you do one lap first show me how good you are Mick Doohan,” I giggle while saying this.

  “You got it hot stuff,” he replies. Puts on the helmet and gloves. Boy he looks sexy. I give him my best 'I want you baby' smile as he jumps on the bike and starts her up. Vrrrrmmmmm, goes the engine. Seeing Kade with this bike between his legs is getting me hot! I am suddenly very jealous of the bike.

  Vrrrrrmmmm. Kade zooms past me up the dirt track, I hear him changing gears. The gear changes sound pretty smooth. I'm a manual chick myself so love a polished gear change. He is riding like a pro, leaning into the corners, even doing little jumps. Show off. Hmmmm, but he's my spunky show off.

  He rides back up to me and takes off his helmet. “So did I ride okay Miss Thorne?” he asks me sarcastically.

  “You did okay out there I guess,” I answer smirking.

  “Hop on sexy,” he says to me and hands me the spare helmet.

  “Okay here goes nothing,” I put the helmet on and slide one leg over the bike and hold onto Kade’s back, arms around his waist. I love the feeling of being so close to him during this somewhat terrifying experience.

  “Okay hold on tight baby,” Kade says to me. I squeeze his waist letting him know I’m ready. Vrrrmmmmm, and we are off. The vibration of the bike is surreal. The engine is so much louder when you are a rider. We go over a few bumps and Kade jumps a little hill. The landing is bumpy, I feel myself shaking around. Especially in the boobs department. I am sure Kade can feel this on his back; it makes me smile to think about it.

  He zooms around trees, over a few more hills and over a large stick that shakes the bike around. God I’m glad I have this helmet on! He finishes off our ride with a large jump over a bigger hill. Shit that was awesome. Okay I officially love motor bikes. He pulls up and I jump off and remove my helmet. “Wow Kade that was friggen awesome! You are so buying a motor bike!” I tell him thrilled and exhilarated from the buzz of riding.

  We say bye to Chuck and settle for our last night of peace and quiet away from the rest of the world. I remember the words Kade said to me last night and I’ve thought of a few of my own to tell him. “Hey baby, I kinda want to bare my soul to you, is that okay?” I ask him sweetly.

  “I would love to hear it angel,” he responds smiling.

  “Baby, you make me feel like a real woman. I feel sexy and confident, yet adored and appreciated when I am with you,” I say to Kade feeling poetic.

  “Your love engulfs me like no other, it creates a netting of safety, a warmth of refuge in the sanctuary of your heart,” I continue with my poetic thanks for his love.

  “That was beautiful, just like you are,” Kade replies with a brilliant smile and kisses me softly.

  I mean every word I tell him; I just hope love is enough.

  Chapter 17

  The Buck’s Weekend (February )

  So the buck’s weekend is in two more days and jeez am I glad it’s a real fishing trip on a boat.

  No women, strippers, clubs etc. The guys from my past were all sleazes and cheats that wouldn’t turn down a hot chick for anything. Even though Kade has shown his worth a hundred times over, men when they get together are different, all egging each other on and drunk.

  At least I can handle the thought of ten guys, blind drunk, sunburnt, no showers, on a lake catching fish.

  It’s Wednesday night and mum asked us over for a barbeque. “Hey mum,” I say walking inside and kissing her on the cheek.

  “Hi Denise,” Kade says and she pulls him in for a hug as well.

  I am so pleased they get along, one less thing to worry about. “Phil is just getting dressed he will be out soon,” she tells us. Her place with Phil is cute; it’s a little townhouse, brand new inside all fresh and modern. They have recently re-decorated it with some new pictures and mum has a few bright cushions on the new chocolate coloured lounge.

  “Love the cushions mum, looks like you’re paying attention to my design info that I share with you,” I say laughing.

  “Thanks Rox, yes I’m trying.” Her and Phil have been together for three years now and he is perfect for her. After years of lemons she really deserves the sweet instead of the sour. He fusses over her, takes her for dinners, spoils her and this is the happiest I think I’ve seen her, well ever.

  “Hey Roxy, hey Kade,” Phil says to us walking down the hallway. “Great to see you two,” he adds. Phil has two grown up children. Sara is twenty-nine and Jacob is thirty-one both are married and a child each.

  “How are Sara and Jacob?” I ask him.

  “They are well thanks for asking Roxy,” he says smiling.

  We enjoy a nice meal, easy conversation until mum brings up Jeremy. I wish I could have spent more time with him at Christmas that’s for sure. “So have you heard from your brother Roxy?” she queries.

  “No mum, not this month, I gather you haven’t either,” I say to her.

  “Well if I have to talk to his voicemail one more time I will not be happy, he should be calling me back and not making me worry,” she says sounding upset.

  “Don’t worry mum you know what he is like, just busy with

  the band,” I stick up for him only to make her feel better, but I am angry with him for his selfish behaviour. I will be ringing Louis from the band if I don’t hear by next week, if not for me, but for mum’s sanity.

  “Thanks for dinner mum, always great to see you,” I tell her as I kiss her cheek and she hugs me intensely.

  “Thanks Denise, your potato bake is the best, please pass the recipe down to Roxy,” Kade tells her and laughs while he pokes my arm.

  “Hey I can cook,” I tease knowing I can only do the basics.

  “Bye Phil thanks for the barbie and beers,” Kade says to Phil and they shake hands.

  Phil is much more of a man’s man, whereas Kade’s father is more of an office type. Funny how the same gene pool can be so different.

  “Drive safe with my daughter in the car Kade,” mum tells him as they wave from their fron
t door. I see Phil wrap his arm around her waist and kiss her on the cheek.

  “They are so cute together don’t you think?” I ask Kade. She deserves every bit of affection after my father’s disappearance and I’m so glad that Phil is the man that he is, makes me sleep better at night that’s for sure.

  It is Friday and I leave uni a little bit early and drop past Pete and Emma’s. The boys are all there ready to leave for the boy’s weekend.

  Three car loads, filled with fishing rods, esky’s and more alcohol than twenty men could drink.

  Kade has his boat attached to his Ute, while the others have

  one on a four wheel drive.

  Kade sees me pull up and walks over to my car. “Hey baby, you come to see me off?” Kade declares as he cuddles me. “I will miss you so much,” he whispers in my ear, making me melt.

  “I will miss you too, I will be lost without you all weekend,” I tell him and realise it’s true, we have spent every part of seven months together pretty much every day and now we will have a whole weekend apart.

  “It will fly Roxy, just wait and see,” Kade says reassuring me.

  “Absence makes the heart grow fonder,” I say to him with a smirk and I can just imagine the built up passion when we see each other Sunday night.

  “So you know you will be jumping straight in the shower before I let you near me baby,” I say to Kade before they are leaving for the trip. “No showers ewwww,” I add. Kade laughs.

  “Oh come on you love my sweaty manly odour Roxy,” he says rubbing himself against me.

  “Not with fish smell, beer and dirt though no way José!” I say laughing and pushing him away.

  I love being playful with this man.

  “Okay fellas lets hit the road,” I hear Pete call out.

  “Yep let’s go,” Kade agrees.

  “Bye baby, enjoy your weekend and I will be back before you can miss me too much,” he says and kisses me with every ounce of his heart and soul. I feel my face get hotter and wetness pools between my legs.